Thread:Athena Hawkins/@comment-26254805-20170621005922/@comment-26254805-20170621023057

I've already seen they spammed a thread of mine on Community Central with.. the entire alphabet?

I can easily see why they all hate me. I don't want to try and force them to like me, they clearly have no reason to.

And the things I do, I'll explain nothing but the truth here:

This'll probably sound generic, but I lived an abusive early childhood. My parents divorced, and my sister and I lived with our dad. But then my dad, while going through several girlfriends already, found one he loved, but she hated me. So she manipulated my dad to be abusive and angrier to me, even grounding me from technology aside from the TV for a year just because I messed up on baking something for them. So when I actually got my laptop back, I usually just took my anger out on raiding this place, because going back some more..

I joined the Wikia back around the early years when I was younger. And I could not decide on a username for the life of me. So me with my little 8 year old or so brain decided just to continually use the accounts like separate accounts, so I wouldn't get people mad at me for socking. Though from what I remember, my stuff was really bad, and got critizied. So I remembered that through my mind as the people there were jerks to me.

But it felt fun. I felt like I was bonding with a community like some cartoony villain who failed at every thing. But even though my dad eventually saw the terrible things in the woman and broke up with her, he still wasn't the best at raising. I would be grounded if I cried. I had to do many things perfectly, or else get yelled at. And it just made me angry and strongly dislike my father, so I took all my anger out here.

He finally got married to a nice woman earlier this year, and now we're moved in with her. So he's finally started to change for the better, and that's why I've decided to try changing for the better as well.

..But some things aren't all his fault. I am homophobic and transphobic because I thought they were gross when I first heard of them. As a very very straight person, and a Christian, I was pretty disgusted. I was also born with long term memory loss (it effects me to a point where I can just remember bits and pieces of most of my life, until I was 13-14 where I am now, but I'm slowly losing memories of last year even)

I eventually joined G+ around two years ago, I believe. I finally found friends there (and a girlfriend, but we recently broke up due to her issues relating to disease and such, that I don't know if she'd want me to reveal. Those friends included Orpheus and Medley.

But I still kept socking because I liked creating things related to games, and didn't really know any other place to write the Nintendo based stuff. And other Wikias were dead as heck from what I saw, so I always found myself going back to Fantendo.

And I apologize for it completely.